It’s ok to change

“Our job is not to deny the story, but to defy the ending – to rise strong, recognize our story, and rumble with the truth until we get to a place where we think, Yes. This is what happened. This is my truth. And I will choose how the story ends” – Brene Brown.

Before & After

As all beautiful synchronicities go, as I landed in beautiful Bali on Tuesday night, Morgan and I were laughing and reminiscing over our very first Bali trip back in 2008 and how fast forwarding 7 years, just how much we have both completely transformed our lives.

Remembering the exact girl I was, I had to go back and find the photos from that time – you get to meet her now as the girl in the left of that photo.

I was riddled with anxiety, carrying extra kgs from a toxic lifestyle, and although there are thousands of fond memories from every aspect of my life, even the bad – I can say that the bad feelings I used to feel and the lack of worthiness I shouldered far exceeded the good feelings I had and worthiness I so sought.

The story most know today is I hit my breaking point of knowing something had to change.

So I did.

You know that quote that says: “actually, I just woke up one day and decided that I didn’t want to feel that way anymore or ever again. So I changed….just like that”

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That was me.

I went on my major journey of self discovery and started to work out who I was. Book by book by book. Meditation by meditation by meditaion. Gratitude by gratitude by gratitude by gratitude. Beautiful friend, by beautiful friend, by beautiful friend. Gym session by gym session by gym session.

I discovered, rather profoundly that…

I wasn’t the ecstasy on weekends.

Or the alcohol at parties to give me confidence.

Or saying the wrong thing to the wrong person to fit in.

I wasn’t the bitching or the gossiping or the negativity.

I wasn’t my feelings of hopelessness.

Nor was I the crippling anxiety from suppressing who I WAS.

My soul started to rumble with the truth …. The truth of who I WAS. And I went on my journey to find that out. I know this doesn’t confuse you either – you know exactly what I’m talking about, because you have felt it too. The whisper or loud knocking on your soul to step in to more of the person you truly are and leave behind all the mess and confusion.

The more I tapped in to my true self, the more I allowed my personality to come through, the more I didn’t say the things I didn’t want to and DID say the things I wanted to – finding my voice, the more I surrounded myself with positive people and the more I read books that uplifted my soul – I found my truth.

And the truth was simple.

That I had a spirit that was pure divinity – just like every other beautiful human on the planet.

That I had all the confidence I needed by simply being my (loud) authentic self.

That I could never say the wrong thing to the right person and that the key was surrounding myself with the right people – in every way, every day.

That I was love. That I could give love, receive love, speak love, act in love and be consumed by love.

That my personality was perfect the way it was when I was most being myself and I didn’t have to say or be or do anything that was out of alignment with that to appease anyone else.

The truth was that I was worthy.

The truth was I didn’t need to be validated by anyone else – but me.

And my life changed.

I became the girl you now see in the right of that photo.

Here is what I need people to most get right to their soul however.

It’s that you’re allowed to change.

Your allowed to have gotten so completely lost and off track and done stupid things and said stupid things and want to change.

You can have been the crazy loud fighting girl – and want to become the softer, more loving girl that is inspired by positivity.

You can have always been the quiet reserved one but really had this loud eccentric spirit who is sick of being squashed and ready to bust out. Bust her out I say.

You can have been a wild corporate workaholic (and no doubt be miserable) and actually re birth yourself as the woman who has always been inside who is a hippie loving yogi who wants to run away to Nepal and write a book or become a nude model.

I don’t know your truth. I don’t need to know your truth. I just need YOU to know your truth and I need you to start to un cover it, step in to it and powerfully live it out.

And NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO TELL YOU OTHERWISE. NO ONE can stop you in to becoming the person you were born to be.

No one.

People will try though. Believe me, they will try. They will tell you that “this isn’t you, where has she come from? You are the crazy one remember, you think youre too good for us now do you?” They will say it to your face some days and other days they will tell everyone but you to try to keep you in the box and confines of what they were comfortable with you being.

But don’t let them stop you on your quest for your truth.

You have a spirit inside of you bursting to live authentically. Gently knocking, sometimes loudly nudging….everyday …. I know you feel it and I know you have heard it, because I did too. And I listened.

And don’t think that trying to step in to your truth will be easy or come without growing pains.

I was bullied. Constantly.

I was attacked with words, belitted, cut down and cut out from peoples lives (you know, the ones who still wanted me to be an asshole and feel shit about myself who should never have been in my life to begin with).

But none of that mattered anymore – because I knew who I was and meeting that girl, this woman I am today – the one who has a voice and loves herself and knows exactly who she is – that excited me more than I can ever explain and it kept me hungry on my quest to bring her out.

Find your hunger.

Go on your fucking quest for truth – it doesn’t need to be scary or extreme either. You DO need to begin it though.

Don’t fear this change. Honour and be excited by it.

LISTEN to the gentle calls (or maybe it’s more of a loud knocking) that you have ignored for far too long.

Understand that you were created and you are here to be you, exactly as you are and wildly authentic.

I listened and you can see your journey in colour before your very eyes. I went from not caring about my health at all (I literally thought it was ‘cool’ to love shit food and drink my weekends away) to having health as my absolute #1 priority and having one of my greatest passions as fitness. IMAGINE if I had of listened to even one person when I went on this quest who said “who do you think you are you, you are absolutely not this person” – well no actually, it’s exactly who I am.

Tune in. It’s all I’m asking. You have a truth inside of you that is busting to come out and you can’t be scared of it anymore. IT’s your JOB to live your brightest most authentic life, and your spirit can’t wait a day longer.

And as the beautiful insightful Brene Brown says..

Your job is not to deny the story, but to defy the ending – to rise strong, recognize our story, and rumble with the truth until we get to a place where we think, Yes. This is what happened. This is my truth. And I will choose how the story ends”

How will YOU choose your story to end?

I hope it’s bold. I hope its authentic and I hope its in bright colour.

Are you living a life of TRUE Freedom?

Freedom

Freedom. 7 little letters forming a word that can mean so much to some and conjure so much emotion in others. Here where I sit, I could never know what that word means to you or what kind of emotion it stirs, and maybe, hey maybe it conjures no emotion for you, but if I may, I would love to share here what it means to me – and I hope you might get something out of this too.

I believe Freedom to be exactly what it has always intended to be – the power or right to act, speak or think as one wants.

Let’s go a little deeper on that though.

To me, the SINGLE HANDED most free’ing ‘thing’ in the world you can EVER gift yourself is not caring what other people think about you. Letting it ALL go. Knowing that their perception and opinion is just that, THEIR’S and it’s shaped by their own life experiences and beliefs and values. And that’s ok. My favourite quote is “it’s their stuff, not yours”.

I see it everyday. In every way. People desperate to speak up, to act out, to have a voice, to laugh loudly, to share a positive message – and yet they are so frozen in fear of what other people might think or say or how they might be perceived, they stop themselves. They stay silent. They muffle the laugh. They choose to not spread a message dying to come out.

You have to understand this though and understand it well, if you are one of the extremely lucky ones to live in a free country with free speech – to silence yourself is a heartbreaking choice.
Some of you may be thinking, who am I to bring this truth to you, and I SHARE this truth because I have lived on both sides. Giving away my freedom and now reclaiming it back and knowing I have the power and right to act, speak and think as I want.

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I remember it well. I was 23 and I really started to ‘change’. I didn’t want to have all my conversations with my friends revolve around other people anymore. I didn’t want to be so negative and anxious all the time and so I started to change. I read more books and went on a huge journey of personal development. I started to become who I wanted more to be – positive, happy, I wanted to share the inspiring quote on facebook with the most loving of intentions, I wanted to share the journey I was on.

Like all people will experience many times in their life though, I had people in my networks that really didn’t like I was changing. So they would be extra negative and berate if I tried to be positive.

They tried to take away my freedom and right to act, speak and think as I wanted too.

Luckily I never listened, for long. Initially, it hurt, I got angry and upset and almost let them stop me for a whole…hour. And then Morgan my amazing husband clearly with much more wisdom and insight than me said “are you really going to let these negative opinions dictate your future – GO AND BE SUCCESSFUL REGARDLESS”. So, I stopped caring what they thought of me, I realized it was none of my business, it was THEIR stuff, not mine and finally took those steps for the first time in my life, it was the greatest gift I could have ever given myself. It was the very definition of freedom to me. I had never felt more free.

I know if I had of cared what other people thought of me I would never, ever, ever be where I am today. No way, no how.

And it didn’t just happen when I was younger either. At 25 I joined a network marketing company and wanted to get my health back on track with their world class nutritional cleansing products.

I was so excited. I was ready to grow again, to try something new, to be positive and make an impact. But again, people in my networks didn’t like that I had chosen something so, so different.

They didn’t like that I was again, changing – which you HAVE to understand is incredibly crazy when it has absolutely nothing to do with anyone else but yourself when you ARE going through a change in your life.

I was told I was crazy, an idiot, I was questioned by girlfriends who thought it was all a façade saying, ‘as if you’re really that grateful and happy Anna’ – it was like they needed me to actually not be getting ahead and to stay stuck where I was. I lost friends over it, their doing, not mine. I was mocked, bullied viciously and publicly vilified.

All because I chose to again make a choice to better myself and move myself forward.

These people, tried with all they had to take away my power and right to act, speak and think as I wanted to – they tried to take away the very definition of Freedom, in a free country, with free speech.

And guess what I did? I again didn’t listen. I didn’t care for 1 second about their opinions. By this stage in life I had learnt that unless you are living the life I want to lead, of love and happiness, of contribution and making something of yourself – I wasn’t ever going to listen to your opinions and I certainly wasn’t going to care what you thought of me whilst I set out to live my own life.

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Paying zero attention to the opinion and judgement of others is ALWAYS done in a loving intention as well, it’s never, ever a “I don’t give a f what you think” .. ever. It’s a “I love you for where you’re at and what you think of me has no bearing on who I am or how I will live my life” – the greatest thing of all now though is I don’t even have to actually say that now, because to defend an opinion or judgement of someone is to give it energy, and to give it energy is unnecessary when you can continue to just go out and keep living your life of love and adventure.

Did it take me a long time to get to that stage? Yes of course, it is absolutely a muscle you have to flex and build and truthfully, there are still fleeting moments I of COURSE slip up (we are all human after all living a beautiful human experience).

The KEY to being ok with not worrying about what people think though is surmised beautifully in this quote – “in order to love who you are, you can not hate the experiences that shaped you”.

I don’t run or hide from my past – so NO ONE has power over me.

WHY on EARTH should you be ashamed or embarrassed or hide from what you did when you were failing forward (I still am and always will be), when we do that we hand over ALL of our power and of course get affected by what people think or say about us.

The moment you can honour every part of your past, good and bad, and be ok with it is the moment you start reclaiming some of your power.

Who you were back then doesn’t have to have any affect on who you are becoming or who you WANT to be.

So I want you to think about this, where in your life are you stopping yourself from saying what you really feel? Or doing what you really want? All from fear of what other people might think or say.

I have some news for you and I want you to really be ready to hear this – but….

 you’re allowed to change.

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You’re allowed to have been a crazy party’ier and now want to stop the drugs or alcohol and lead a more positive life.

I did.

You’re allowed to have never been sure about what you wanted and where you wanted to go and now found something you’re REALLY passionate for and GO for it.

I did.

You’re allowed to have been someone who has never had a clue about fashion and now loves to at least try to keep up with the trends if that is what makes you happy.

I did.

You’re allowed to have been someone who was really negative and an asshole and now actually like people and want the best for them (in fact if that’s you then I am cheering you on so loudly)

And guess what? You’re allowed to SHARE ALL OF THAT. You’re allowed to be excited by it. You’re allowed to want to go on that journey and not do it in secret. You’re allowed to say how you feel and enjoy the transition.

YOU’RE ALLOWED TO HAVE THE POWER AND RIGHT TO ACT, SPEAK AND THINK EXACTLY AS YOU PLEASE without anyone attacking or judging or bringing you down.

And if that happens – maybe those people aren’t ready to move in to the next phase of your own life and that’s ok too, just love them where they’re at, don’t spend time with those that make you feel horrible about yourself and keep moving forward.

I think you are remarkable the way you are – flaws and eff up’s and bad choices, silly mistakes and ALL and I know who you are becoming is a beautiful best version of you and you shouldn’t be afraid to step in to that power and share it, not for one second.

So love YOU and start understanding that what people think of you is NONE of your business and start stepping in to more of who you WANT to be but have been scared to because of what ‘others might say’ … remember that those who matter won’t mind and those that mind don’t matter.

Cheering you on as you step in to who you were born to be, not who society has told you to be.

Remember those who dance are considered insane by those who can’t hear the music … so it doesn’t matter if people can’t hear your music, JUST NEVER STOP DANCING TO THE BEAT OF YOUR OWN DRUM and where that beat takes you.

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A+M Get Married; Part 4

So if there is one thing Morgan and I love more than anything, it’s not just a party, but a party with our nearest and dearest and what better excuse to have the biggest most extraordinary party of your life – than at your wedding?

The reception was big for us and there was one theme that we said was our biggest priority to our planners and one theme only and that was – DANCING (and of course, fun!)

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Wanting to not waste a minute as party with our guests for as long as we could – you only get one night after all right – we gave ourselves one hour for photos, yep, ONE hour, so we figured if we didn’t get the shots, too bad, we’d remember the day and night through our video and memories anyway. The party and love and being amongst all of our nearest and dearest was our biggest priority (the good news is we still got the shots in the 1 hour!).

Coming back from photos we were announced in to the reception (our divine bridal party first of course) with a song we both loved since we were kids….‘Space Jam – let’s get ready to rumble song’. To refresh your memory and to prove it’s worthiness of a bridal announcement song the lyrics go;

Ladies and Gentleman, introducing the main event…. 

LET’S GET READY TO RUMBLEEEEEEEEEE. 

Cue epic, epic, tunes

I know, I know, best song choice ever.

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Food and booze were served and one thing I will say about a Bali wedding is the service can’t be faltered. As you finished your champagne or cocktail, the waiters had the next one at your table ready to be served.

One of the highlights of a wedding for me is always; the speeches, and our day was no different, when I think back on the day or namely, the reception, I DO remember the fireworks, the dancing and the FUN (my god the fun) but I remember the tears and laughter from the words shared from those who amazingly gave a speech. We had my mum Jenny, Morgans dad Aronn, the best man Joff, and both Morgan AND I did (I was never going to be the bride who sat silently at her wedding!) What I will share from the speeches was a quote I finished on by Steve Maraboli called Soul mates, a quote that when I first stumbled upon it years and years ago, I knew it was the words I would read to Morgan on our wedding night …

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When we are born, the soul we are given is split apart and half of it is given to someone else. Throughout our lives, we search for the person with the other half of our soul. Very few ever succeed. 

I am blessed that we have met. In a sudden moment, warm within your loving glare, my soul said, “At last! I can rest. I have fond my missing half” 

When this happens, it is said we have found our soul mate. We are happy and at peace. When we shared ourselves, we were engulfed in eternity, dancing in a timeless universe. I am truly blessed because that day, my heart recognized you as part of its own. 

Thank you for blessing ME with YOU. Thank you for dreaming with me. For seeing the same future as I do. For your beautiful eyes, soul and essence, reminding me of the truest bliss in life. I am forever grateful for you. 

I will spend an eternity loving you, caring for you, respecting you, showing you every day that I hold you as high as the stars. 

We were called up to cut the cake with all eyes on us and I remember looking at Morgan and saying “none of this feels real it truly is a fairytale”. Our first dance immediately followed our cake cutting and we floated across the dance floor to “Sam Smith – Latch (Acoustic)” – when we both heard the song sitting at home one night we looked at each other and BOTH said – “this is it!” With lyrics like the following though how could we not have?

You lift my heart up when the rest of me is down

You, you enchant me even when you’re not around

If there are boundaries, I will try to knock them down

I’m latching on, babe, now I know what I have found

Now I’ve got you in my space

I won’t let go of you

Got you shackled in my embrace

I’m latching on to you

I’m so en-captured, got me wrapped up in your touch

Feel so enamored, hold me tight within your clutch

How do you do it? You got me losing every breath

What did you give me to make my heart bleed out my chest

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Morgan and I didn’t feel we wanted to go to dance rehearsals or practice how we’d dance on the night, we love to have fun, and we always love to be in each others embrace so we knew whatever came out on the night would be ok, and I have to say, watching back the wedding video, the dance was some of my most intimate memories of he & I that day and night.

As soon as our song had finished and ALL of our guests were on the dance floor (encouraged by our wedding planners knowing what was coming next) all the lights and music were cut out like we had a “black out” for guests to think ‘oh no’ … but within seconds, the first BOOM went off and the fireworks were lighting up the sky. I remember the squeals and screams and woo’s from the guests and writing this out I have tears again as all the feelings flood back.

The rest of the night felt like it went on forever in the best way possible.

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We danced, we drank our signature cocktails and champagne and we laughed – but my god did we dance, and dance, and dance. Morgan & I’s main goal of the whole night once all the formalities were over as I said, was to have everyone on the dancefloor, and I remember our wedding planning stealing us away, telling us to turn back around to take it all in, and I started squealing with joy as I realized every single guests was on the dance floor dancing their heart out.

And the rest, as they say .. is history. Between the dancing, and the laughter and the hugs and the .. dancing – we literally had the time of our lives, the best party of our lives and the best night of our lives.

I want to leave our wedding series with some words we wrote to our beautiful wedding celebrant when she asked us two questions that we absolutely loved talking about together then writing together – and they were ‘What the relationship and marriage means to us” and “what are our hopes for the future together”

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I believe there is nothing stronger or more bonding than the written word, so I share this with you today to be held accountable to a love that I know will last the ages, and every life thereafter…

To Love…

What the relationship & marriage means to you? 

A marriage to us, is the highest form of commitment to each other, a binding of forever and infinite love in which two people hold space for one another, to grow, heal, learn, laugh, love unconditionally  

Marriage is when two come together and invite the highest good to be revealed through them and in them, so that together they can powerfully serve the world more love and light.  

What your hopes are for the future together? 

To grow more and more in love as each year passes. To have a marriage built on a foundation of love, trust, fun and adventure and for all of those areas to only strengthen and develop as we grow old together. To keep a home that is full of love and safety. To raise our children to know true love. To be each others best friends right till the end. And to grow old and grey surrounded by children and grandchildren and family who all have an abundance of love and happiness.  

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A+M Get Married: The Ceremony (Part 3)

Since I was a little girl, I had never grown up dreaming about my dream wedding. I had never expected to be a certain way and I certainly had never ever given a thought, not one, to what the day would look like – whether it would be in a church, or outside, whether I would be in a princess dress or figure hugging, so when Morgan got down on one knee and asked me the sacred question, we literally had a blank canvas of ideas and possibilities to work with because I truly had no vision for the day.

It very fast became apparent to us though that the main focus was to be about love and that our ceremony had to mirror us completely. We needed a celebrant who we connected with, who got ‘us’ and who brought our vision to life; a ceremony of deep love, one that would be incredibly intimate but have our personalities show through. We found our perfect match in Tracey from ‘Bali Bliss Celebrant’ and from day 1 knew she would make the ceremony what we wanted it to be.

I remember sitting with Morgan going over our ceremony questions from Tracy laughing as we recalled the first time we met, getting emotional as we wrote out our own definitions of the meaning of marriage and then combining them both, and going our separate ways to quietly reflect and write our own vows.

Admittedly, we wrote our vows the week before we got married and we both said they were the easiest and most natural words we had ever written. I think true love, a strong foundational love, you know each other as well as you know yourself and we both knew exactly what it would take to grow old together falling more in love as each year passed and what promises we would have to make for it to work.

If I had to sum up our ceremony in words it was; pure love, fun, emotional and divine. It was fate.

We got to write our extraordinary love story that day and I won’t ever forget every tear, every laugh and every word spoken.

From start to finish this is how our love story went.

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Walking down the aisle

I was calm. So calm. There wasn’t one moment from the lead up to the day of to the song starting that I wasn’t blissfully calm. I remember just being so excited that in a few short minutes I would get to see my Morgan again after not having seen him for a night and day and that in an hour, I would be his wife. The girls and I were lined up and the music started, my bridesmaids and I had different songs, each song equally as important as the other. Every single part of our wedding was personal, right down to the decisions around the song choices.

Kissing you by Des’ree started and one by one off my girls went before me. Kissing you held so much significance to me for a multitude of reasons, it was the song of Romeo and Juliet, one of my favourite movies of all time and the two shared a love so strong they would die rather than live without the other, so I always knew I needed the song a part of my day. Lyrically, I was also madly in love with the song –

But when it was my time to take the aisle there was no other option to me than A thousand years by Christina Perri. Hearing the first note of that song was overwhelming for me. This was it. Even now, 6 months on, hearing that song still makes me overcome with emotion and makes me tear up and I think it always will. I knew the song was for me when I heard the lyrics “I have died every day waiting for you, darling don’t be afraid I adore you, I’ve loved you for a thousand years, I’ve loved you for a thousand more”. As you will see when later amongst these words when I share some of our speeches, I truly deeply madly believe that Morgan & I are twin flames, and fate was never going to keep us apart.

I’ll never forget locking eyes with Morgan. Ever. And have never wanted to get to him more. I remember not even remembering the crowd, our beautiful guests, and from the top of the aisle right to arriving at my groom, we never once took our eyes off each other. This was our day and honouring each other in every second was our goal.

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The Readings

I think this was simultaneously the hardest part about in the co-creation of the ceremony with Tracy whilst being the easiest part as well. The hardest because we needed readings that spoke to us which meant going through hundreds and thousands of words to find the ones that spoke to us most– we aren’t religious people, our ‘religion’ is love and kindess, so we knew the readings would be centered around poems, quotes or passages from books we loved.

We landed upon 3 – and each time I found them right beside Morgan we knew they were the one when Morgan tenderly would kiss me and say ‘this is it’ and I would be sitting there sobbing (not just some dainty tears, literally sobbing).

We chose 2 of my brothers to do a reading, one of our longest and oldest friends Belinda, and a friend who is a brother to us both, Ben. We are both so deeply grateful for all they do in our life and we knew we wanted them a part of our day in this special way.

The Readings we chose were:

That my two older brothers Zac & Tim read:

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Marriage Joins Two People in the Circle of Its Love – Edmund O’Neill

Marriage is a commitment to life, the best that two people can find and bring out in each other. It offers opportunities for sharing and growth that no other relationship can equal. It is a physical and an emotional joining that is promised for a lifetime.

Within the circle of its love, marriage encompasses all of life’s most important relationships. A wife and husband are each other’s best friend, confidant, lover, teacher, listener and critic. And there may come times when one partner is heartbroken or ailing, and the love of the other may resemble the tender caring of a parent for a child. Marriage deepens and enriches every facet of life.

Happiness is fuller, memories are fresher, commitment is stronger, even anger is felt more strongly and passes away more quickly. Marriage understands and forgives the mistakes life is unable to avoid. It encourages and nurtures new life, new experiences and new ways of expressing a love that is deeper than life. When two people pledge their love and care for each other in marriage, they create a spirit unique unto themselves, which binds them closer than any spoken or written words. Marriage is a promise, a potential made in the hearts of two people who love each other and takes a lifetime to fulfill

That one of our best friends Ben Kelly read:

Psst – there is still something about these words that when I read them I cry. Not a well of tears in my eyes, a tears streaming down my face kind of cry. I think that is the kind of emotion you want your readings to evoke months and years after your wedding.

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I will be here – Steven Chapman

In the morning when you wake, If the sun does not appear – I will be here. If in the dark we lose sight of love, Hold my hand and have no fear, I will be here. I will be here, when you feel like being quiet. When you need to speak your mind, I will listen. Through the winning, losing and trying, we’ll be together, And I will be here. In the morning when you wake, if the future is unclear, I will be here, As sure as the seasons were made for change, Our lifetimes were made for years. I will be here. You can cry on my shoulder. And I will be here. When the mirror tells us we’re older, I will hold you to watch you grow in beauty and tell you all the things you are to me. We’ll be together and I will be here. I will be true to the promises I’ve made to you. I will be here. That one of our longest and most treasured friends Belinda Rae read:

That one of our longest, most amazing friends Belinda Rae read: 

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The Promise – Heather Berry

Within this blessed union of souls, where two hearts intertwine to become one, there lies a promise. Perfectly born, divinely created, and intimately shared, it is a place where the hope and majesty of beginnings reside. Where all things are made possible by the astounding love shared by two spirits. As you hold each other’s hands in this promise, and eagerly look into the future in each other’s eyes, may your unconditional love and devotion take you to places where you’ve both only dreamed. Where you’ll dwell for a lifetime of happiness, sheltered in the warmth of each other’s arms”

The Vows

By far the easiest part of the whole wedding. Morgan & I didn’t write out our vows until we were IN Bali (a week before the wedding) and went of separately to do them. Being someone who’s deepest passion is words and writing I came up with, along with Morgans kisses and blessing the first part of our vows, as we didn’t want anything in our wedding to be ‘tokenism’ – we wanted it personal and us and the best way to be personal and us was to write every aspect of the vows ourselves.

So off we went in Bali at the same time quietly at sunset to write out what we wanted to promise one another. This was the easiest part because we knew what we wanted to promise each other. I always say Morgan & I didn’t fall in to a dream relationship nor has it all been easy. We have, quiet literally, fought for our love. It’s never been ‘hard’ (core difference) but we have spent 8 years together working out who we are individually so we can grow together as a pair and we knew the promises the other needed and we needed ourselves to continue to grow this love.

The vows to us as well weren’t something we would say to say – which is why we opted to write every aspect of them. To us, they were the most important part of the whole day and are 6 months later something we are already reminding each other of weekly.

And here is what we promised each other;

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My vows to Morgan …

I call upon our family and friends  

To witness that I, Anna Ogilvie 

Take you, Morgan Richards  

as my husband for eternity.  

You Morgan, are my every reason, every hope and every dream. 

Every day that I am gifted with you is the greatest day of my life 

I love you more than any word can ever truly express  

or feeling that can be explained.  

Here today I vow to join my life eternally with yours.  

I give you my life to keep, my heart to own, and my laughter to share.  

This is what I promise you.  

I will protect you, our values and our love above all else.  

I will always stand beside you – not behind or in front of you. I stand beside you to always raise you up as an equal. 

I will practice instant forgiveness with you everyday so anger or arguments never last more than a moment.  

I promise whatever you need, strength, understanding, or laughter, I will give to you in an instant.  

I promise to make your coffee perfectly and always deliver it with a kiss.  

I promise I will always be the woman to make your head turn first when I walk in to the room and make you feel like the only man that exists to demand my love, attention and respect.  

I promise to always be your crazy dreamer and love and respect you as my realist.  

I promise to always honour and respect you as an individual whilst we grow as a pair.  

I promise to be the most extraordinary wife – I may not always cook or clean, but I will laugh with you, cry with you,make mistakes with you, fall with you and get back up with you, travel with you and I will always always be your biggest fan and cheerleader forever.  

I promise to put us first always – even when our children join us in this life. I promise that I WILL remember this and honour that the greatest gift we can give our children are two parents who are madly in love with each other and put each other first.  

I promise that I will communicate with you how I am always feeling and keep those lines of communication open until our last day.  

I promise to live an extraordinary life with you – every moment of every day and give my everything to you and this marriage.  

I will love you Morgan until our final breathe and every life we live together after.  

Morgan’s vows to Me …

I call upon our family and friends  

To witness that I, Morgan Richards  

Take you, Anna Ogilvie  

as my Wife for eternity.  

You Anna, are my every reason, every hope and every dream. 

Every day that I am gifted with you is the greatest day of my life 

I love you more than any word can ever truly express  

or feeling that can be explained.  

Here today I vow to join my life eternally with yours.  

I give you my life to keep, my heart to own, and my laughter to share.  

This is what I promise you.  

I promise i will put my heart and soul into this marriage every single day

I promise that i will be a better listener than a talker  

I promise that i will make you laugh every single day. Even if its at my own expense  

I promise to love everything about us as a couple but to also respect you and love you as an individual. 

I promise to be your biggest cheerleader, not just in the good times but also when times are tough. 

I promise to always offer you my last hot chip. Even though i know you will feel guilty for eating it and then blame me.   

I promise to always be open and honest with you and to never go to sleep angry. 

I promise that i will always be your shoulder to cry on and your fiercest protector.  

The promise to always communicate openly and honestly with you 

I promise to love you unconditionally until the day i die.   

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‘I Now prounce you Mr & Mrs Richards’

I have kissed Morgan for 10 years now. Yes… 10.Years. But I can say this from the bottom of my soul, that the kiss when we were pronounced as husband and wife and he was “now allowed to kiss his bride” was a kiss quite like no other. Not for the physicality of it – but the emotional intention behind it. This was it. Just us two. We were binded to each other officially forever and I walked back up the aisle with a new last name and with a husband, and he, with a wife.

The song we chose to walk back up the aisle to as new husband and wife was Duke Dumont, I got you. We wanted something fun and upbeat and couldn’t go past not just the tune of that song – and it so so so suited where we got married in beautiful Bali too – but lyrically it still covers me in goosebumps when I hear the song.

Ask me what I did with my life

I spent it with you

If I lose my fame and fortune

(Really don’t matter)

As long as I got you, baby

As the years they pass us by

(Years they, years they, years they)

We stay young through each other’s eyes

(Each other’s eyes)

And no matter how old we get

It’s okay, as long as I got you, baby”

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A hugely critical and key part of our day was the moment Morgs & I privately took immediately after the ceremony was over. We had told our wedding planners we wanted 10 minutes by ourselves. To just sit and soak in all that we were feeling and quietly have our first few moments as husband and wife together.

If I could ever give brides & grooms a piece of advice it is to have those precious quiet moments together straight after a ceremony. We were ushered in to an air con room and they bought Morgan a cold beer and me a glass of Verve and we had 10 minutes of private time.

Morgan & I didn’t want our guests to have to stand in a line and hug us one by one to say Congratulations either (we are not the traditional type), we knew they loved us and we wanted them to have as good a time as we were having so we did a quick group shot and then they were ushered down next to the infinity pool where cold cocktails, hot canapés and smooth tunes awaited them. The guests watched the sun set and ate and drank as we snuck off for our 1 hour of photos.

At that stage Morgan & I and our amazing bridal party crew jumped in to 2 cars to race to the beach to get some shots to eternalize our day. Although I adore photos, one thing I didn’t want was hours of photos. I know that sounds almost like an oxymoron but I trusted so implicitly the photographer would get the shots that showed off our personalities and our amazing bridal party within the hour – and I was right. We wanted to party, we wanted to be with our guests and we wanted to have the day just flow with ease so having that 1 hour limit on photos to us, made that all happen.

We were taken back to the estate for the party to start at 6pm …. But those memories will be brought to you in the next love note that brings all our memories from the party of the year to you.

Before we kick start the version of our events for the par-tay. I just wanted to leave you with this, which is our meaning of marriage that we sat and came up with heading in to not just our wedding but our marriage.

Love is everything, and our love, means this to us;

A marriage to us, is the highest form of commitment to each other, a binding of forever and infinite love in which two people hold space for one another, to grow, heal, learn, laugh, love unconditionally  

Marriage is when two come together and invite the highest good to be revealed through them and in them, so that together they can powerfully serve the world more love and light. 

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A+M get married: Emotions of the day (Part 2)

I believe, right to my core, that energy is everything and everything is energy, so not wanting any expectations put on me by anyone else or by myself, I got just that and went in to our wedding day completley expectation less. And if there was one word to describe not having any expectations of the day or put on me by others, it would be; divine. I wasn’t worried about how I was meant to be feeling, or if what I WAS feeling was normal and every moment and emotion was just met with love and calm.

And here is some of those emotions put pen to paper for you…

Morgan & I had our final moments together the night before and spoke of love and life and what marriage meant to us and more (some things are meant to remain sacred after all). He was then kicked out in to another suite on the estate and my best friend and soul sister Peta moved in to the room.

Waking up, at 5:30am, I will never forget turning to see if PK was awake to see her lying there with the biggest smile on her face who immediately started to pour love and excitement. “Can you believe TODAY is the day ” ..”its here” “the day of all days” “YOU’RE GETTING MARRIED” “MARRRIEEDDDDDD ANNA”!!!!!… we jumped around and squealed for awhile before I went out in solitude to the balcony of our room to watch the sunrise. None of it was planned. I had never intended to be up to watch the sunrise but I have to say being up for that last sunrise as a fiancé and not a wife was the most peaceful, beautiful, surreal start to my day ever.

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All the bridesmaids then joined me at our suite for some squeals and hugs and tears. We were all emotional before 6:30am and I couldn’t have loved it anymore. They left me to journal sitting in solitude on the balcony and sitting there, overlooking the ocean as the sun continued to rise is something I’ll remember for ever. It’s these moments I’ll remember amongst the hours that followed. The quiet ones, the contemplative ones.

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“Dear universe, 

Today is the day I get to marry the love of my life and my best friend and there is no feeling to describe it. I am sitting on my private balcony watching and listening to the waves crash and watching the sun rise slowly in the sky and I feel a sense of calm and bliss like never before. To me, marrying Morgan is the most natural thing in the whole world so the feelings are all centred. 

I am calm. I am totally in love. I am ready. 

Morgan has taught me the meaning of true love. That we don’t need each other, but we want each other, and that we have never been two halves to complete a whole, but rather worked on ourselves to become whole whilst being united as two. 

This morning as I sit on the ocean in the sun, full from love, I feel at peace. Like my soul has truly founds its missing half and it’s home. Today I am his, and he is mine, and it is now so for infinite eternity. 

…… (a small snippet from my journalling the morning of the wedding) 

When we were ready we made our way in to the beautiful open planned living area that was overlooking the infinity pool and ocean and had our fresh breakfast whipped up by our chef whilst the first bottles of Moet & Verve for the day were popped. I just remember laughing, lots and lots and lots of laughing and “can you believe its here” moments. At this stage the sentiment of the day was already echoed several times that “you are so CALM how are you so calm” – and I was, because as I had journalled that morning, to me, this was just the most natural thing in the whole world.

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Once we were done with breakfast the girls moved all their things up in to my suite for the day where we would be getting ready and I went for a swim – one thing I remember about the whole day is the energy, I did whatever I was called to do in any given moment and to me I think it’s what made the whole day more relaxing, fun and calm.

At this stage, Morgan was still downstairs in the estate waiting for the boys to come, relaxing by himself – and word had gotten to me HE was a little nervous!! As soon as his groomsmen arrived the nerves seemed to disappear and they got to kick start their day with swimming and beers and relaxing too.

The rest of the day went by as any normal wedding day would. Make up, hair, boys getting ready probably 20 minutes before they had to as guys rock at getting ready way way more efficiently than girls! I remember saying to the make up artist & my beautiful girlfriend Emma who did our wedding hair, that I wanted everyone to be done by 3:30pm (ceremony was at 4:30pm) as I just wanted that hour to relax. To soak it in. To not be rushed. To just be calm and gather my energy and focus on intentions. And at 3:30pm on the dot my dress was getting zipped up and we were popping one of the last bottles of Verve before we headed out for the Ceremony.

I still get goosebumps and butterflies thinking back to that day before the ‘wedding’ officially kicked off. All those special moments with my bridesmaids, my sister, my mum and my niece. The laughter, dancing, high fives, more laughter, tears, intention setting and did I mention laughter?

One beautiful thing I will remember forever was something my best friend Peta did with me. Every hour or so she would stop me, take both my hands look me in the eye and ask me what I was feeling in that moment, and what was my intention for that moment. It could have been to feel the emotion, at one time it was to remember every second, another hour it was to soak up the memories, but it was that critical role she played, in helping me set and connect to intentions is what I believe made me so calm and more crucially, made the day go s.l.o.w. So many people said to me that “your day goes so fast you won’t know where the time has gone” but I honestly, truly had the opposite experience because my intention was for the day to go slow and to soak up every second of every minute of every hour.

You see I’m here to dispel some myths brides to be so get ready to have your world rocked.

Your day doesn’t “go by in a flash” – its as if time stands still and you can see everything in slow motion. All of it.

Your day isn’t stressful and rushed – its calm, beautiful, intentional and as divine as you intend for it to be.

You don’t have to “not get too drunk” – enjoy that champagne, toast every moment and know every sip is worth it.

And nothing goes wrong. Nothing. Your day will truly be as magical and fairytale as you imagined it to be because even tiny mishaps don’t matter when all that does is that you walk down the end of that aisle to the man you’re promising your forever to.

I will never forget Belinda, our wedding planner coming in to the suite and saying, ‘ok are you ready? It’s time to get married’ … it all still feels like slow motion, walking out with the girls, my niece and mum, lining up, keeping my Great Uncle calm – who walked me down the aisle – and laughing with the girls as they were getting ready to walk before me as my best friends and soul sisters, and then…. and then, the music started.

I still get emotional writing this now thinking about the song and feelings at that moment.

That is where this post ends though and Part 3 begins with ‘The Ceremony’ and I’ll share all the moments, photos and feelings from that sacred extraordinary part of the day.

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A+M get married: Love & intentions (Part 1)

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October 17th 2014. 17th tenth two thousand and fourteen. 17/10/14.

No matter how it’s written or pronounced, October 17th 2014 was the most magical day of my life – the day I became we and my ‘partner’ became my husband.

I sit here some months later writing this simply because it has taken me this amount of time for it to all sink in, up until now, the day still seemed like a dream – something we were separate from, out of body almost. Like we were there in a big fairytale, a part of a love story unfolding, and yet it was our love story. That love story and day feels real now. We are remembering laughs, looks, smiles, feelings and remembering they were ours – we were the ones there experiencing that.

I still have moments every few days where a song from the wedding will come on in the car and I can’t stop the tears rolling down my face, sometimes gentle sobs from total and utter feelings of love, there have been many moments people in cars beside me at the lights look at me with a look of “oh you poor thing I hope you’re ok” and I try to give them the look back, the one where I’m saying “it’s ok I’m just remembering the happiest, most beautiful, most surreal day of my life.”

I like to think if I could have bottled the feelings of love up on that day, right from the moment of waking up, to when our heads hit the pillow (& really continuing on in to the next day) and we gave those bottles of love away, no one in this big beautiful world would ever go without love ever again.

I truly mean it when I say it was that beautiful.

And here is where I think is a divine time to bring in the first part of a 7 part wedding series … WHY it was truly that beautiful and HOW we had the most beautiful day of our lives. Completely stress free. Magical. Intentional. Divine.

Before I share with you every intimate detail from the day I want to share with you something much much bigger….something much more deeply and divinely important.

Our INTENTIONS behind the ‘biggest day of our lives’

You see, before we even made the tiniest of plans relating to ANY aspect of the wedding – we set an intention not just for the wedding, but for our marriage. Something I believe many people ‘skip’ or ‘miss’ these days.

When I was a little girl, my extraordinary supermum brought me up with the belief that “although your wedding day IS the most important day of your life sweeties, please don’t ever forget the ‘forever’ after it…your marriage. Focus on your MARRIAGE, not the wedding, and the wedding will fall in to place

As a little girl I remember vividly biting back (with love), laughing, telling mum “please!!!!! My wedding is going to be so big and beautiful Australia will declare it a public holiday forever more” – I’m not even actually kidding! Clearly I was always a big dreamer!

Funny thing is, I never forgot her advice, and as I grew up and in to love, I realized she might have just been right. So when Morgan asked the most honourable question of all time “will you make me the luckiest man on earth and be my wife” … I knew from that day forward my intention and focus was to be on the marriage to come, and not the wedding.

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We talked of how we would raise our children. What values would we instill in them? What rules would we have as non negotiable in our lives? How did we commit to grow independently still continuing to grow as a couple? How would we always love and honour one another even through the shitty tough times? They were hard questions, all of which were tackled head on and with love – always.

As all of that was happening, some beautiful wedding plans started to unveil themselves. It was, as my mum said it would, happening divinely. The marriage was the focus and the wedding started to be planned around that.

Then the moment came. We flew to Bali with some of our best friends for a quick holiday knowing secretly in our hearts we had followed our hearts to a place that made us both feel happy and that was the place, on that holiday , we made the decision to marry in Bali.

The day we made the decision, we went to a beach front bar at sunset with our friends, 3 of our favourite things– the beach, friends & sunsets – and did something I believe to be most critical when about to embark on planning a wedding.

We made vows to one another of how to conduct ourselves leading in to the wedding.

Yep. Vows.

We went to the beach, as the sun was setting, and made promises to one another about our intentions for not just the wedding, but promises on how we would feel and act throughout the process – and WHY.

We vowed the process would be a stress free, happy, argument free process. We discussed this was promised because any argument in the planning process was an opposing feeling to the WHOLE point of the wedding which was…Love and togetherness.

We vowed that in the moment of stress or an argument arising, we would stop, and remember WHY in the first place we were getting married. Because we loved each other. Because we were saying we wanted each other for this lifetime (& hopefully the next). And that no matter what we would honour this promise.

We vowed that we each would play a part no matter how big or small in each decision. So it wasn’t ‘my’ day or ideas with him showing up.

*side note: at this very moment of writing this listening to music, our first dance song has just come on – latch, (acoustic version), Sam Smith – talk about tears!!

We vowed that the wedding planning process would be as beautiful and fun as the wedding itself. That every decision, dollar spent and moment surrounding the wedding would have an intention of love. Every single aspect of everything was from love, with love or involved love.

Vows before vows I hear you ask? It might sound a little odd, silly, even lame perhaps (only if you’re a guy!) .. but I know, not even think, I KNOW it was THOSE vows that made our whole wedding so divine and loved filled. The Vows we made we took very seriously, we looked at it like if we couldn’t honour these vows to one another what would that say about the vows we were going to promise to each other on the big day?

The moment was captured by said best friends – and we all had a toast to the big day that was from that day forward going to be planned.

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And so the planning began. Vows were upheld. Love was poured in to every thought, every purchase, every idea, every moment…and what eventuated is what I know to be our love soaked wedding.

The first test came with what I believe is every engaged couples test. The wedding guest list. Morgan & I’s emotion behind the whole wedding was there wasn’t to be an ounce of tokenism, so that absolutely extended to the guest list. I know some might debate us until they’re blue in the face calling us liars, but our guest list was the first easy task we tackled without so much as a hiccup of disagreement. Here is why. We discussed HOW and WHY people would be invited to the most important day of our lives. We came up with a ‘caveat’ of areas people had to ‘fit in to’ to receive an invite – they never knew this but it was our huge way of declaring how much they truly meant to us and why we truly wanted them there. The ‘caveats’ were the following;

  1. Who, in our most desperate times of need, when we were questioning our marriage or selves would we go to first to remind us of our vows we took to one another on our day. I.e. who were the ones we knew we honoured and loved the most and honoured & loved us back who would hold us accountable to our vows.
  2. Who would we want to spend our New Years with? Morgan & I are only semi superstitious (ehem; I’m super superstitious) but one of the things we both hold true is that how we bring in our new years is a reflection of the year ahead – so it’s never WHAT we do, but WHO we spend it with. So this was huge in our decision making.
  3. Who would we want to call immediately when we knew we were pregnant? Who would share in that precious gift of knowing before the rest of the world knew? (aka before facebook)

And thus the guest list was formed. The beautiful thing about it, was that there was so much love & intamicy poured in to the guest list that we had no stresses or arguments over who should come because no matter who’s side or friends ALL had to fit the caveat so it was all love.

Now. Were there moments of arguments? No. Frustration? Almost. Of course there were conversations more intense, like me trying to explain to Morgan what a bonbonairre was and how it wasn’t a waste of money and no darling we ARE meant to give gifts to our guests. But here is what happened because of our vows. I respectfully listened and loved him where he was at on that opinion and we actually came up instead with the best idea for bonbarinners ever (if I do say so myself) … I went and bought quote cards from Kiki K (which just by the way happened to be in our wedding colours! White & Gold) and on the back of every.single.one wrote to every single one of our guests individually a love soaked letter from us. What they meant to us, thanked them for being them & playing a pivotal role in our lives and why they’re amazing. THAT was their bonbairnaire, that truly only stemmed from trying to think outside the box and make it more thoughtful and honouring Morgans opinion of even having a gift. When I rang him with that idea he was blown away. He said it was beautiful, he loved it and was proud of me.

I give that example as a way to show of course there were “disagreements” – but honouring the vows of not getting in to arguments or stress – we ended up coming up with even more beautiful thoughtful ideas.

Everything was love. Everything had intention.

And please don’t think I’m ignoring one of the biggest stressors that can come from planning a wedding – money. Planning your dream wedding of course can have it’s financial stresses, and I was conscious throughout the planning process that Morgan & I were incredibly blessed to not have any of those kind of stresses. We paid for the wedding ourselves with ease…. But let me just honour US for a moment and say we could do that because we made a smart decision 18 months before the wedding to take control of our future. It wasn’t luck, or parents or debt. It was through choices we made to work hard on a business where we can create financial freedom – which we did. A choice you can make to so I won’t ever ever hear “it was easy for them” .. ever. It can be easy for you to.

So here we are. About to delve in to the next 6 parts of our wedding that I want to intimately share with you, beautiful reader. But before I ever did that I truly wanted you to first understand WHY I know in my heart and soul it was the most magical divine day of our lives – because of this key piece of love & intention.

It was our intention to love through the whole process.

It was our intention to focus on the marriage after the one day that was our wedding.

It was our intention to create the most beautiful space for not just us, but our beautiful guests to experience our love for one very very special day.

But above all, it was our intention to create a beautiful life and love AFTER the wedding. Something we knew that if wasn’t the main focus going IN TO to the wedding, certainly wouldn’t be AFTER the wedding.

It is that same intention I hope for you too to focus on whenever it is your turn to experience the most magical divine day of your lives.

I hope the next 6 posts bringing every detail of our magical day bring you as much love and joy as we had experiencing them.

And here is to leading and living a life full of LOVING intention, always.

With all my love,

Anna

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Making 2015 your best yet

2015

It goes and looks a little something like this.

December 31st is looming and over a bottle of wine with girlfriends or a couple of beers at a bbq the conversation begins .. you know the one, the re hashing of 2014, the goals you hit or didn’t hit, the weight you are starting to pile on over the silly season, the regret of not taking the holiday or sticking some things to your boss. But then someone in the group says the magic words “that is ALL in the past though we are about to start a brand new year and 2015 is going to be MY year” …..

Then the fun begins, the goals start getting thrown around of how and why 2015 is going to be different. You ARE going to lose the kilo’s of the past few months or years, you ARE going to have more energy for your kids or husband/wife, you are going to ask the boss for the promotion and pay rise you so desperately need and deserve and you are definitely going to start making healthier choices to lead a healthier and happier life.

So January 1st hits. It’s here, the new year, 2015 finally arrives and things start getting busy. In fact the 1st January almost slips by un detected, as life is rolling on so fast – so…normal like. 2015 doesn’t at all thus far feel any different to 2014.

February hits and you feel like you blinked and missed January entirely. You are already stressed about deadlines at work, or maybe finances are still tight and the goals you had set last year already seem unattainable as you can’t see how you’ll make all ends meet.

On, and on and on it goes. March, April, May, June & July all slip past without a hint of life slowing down and 2015 doesn’t feel at all different to 2014, just more stress, a couple more kilos’ and more financial stress as you think about having kids, or getting married or renovating the house.

Then, it’s December before you know it – and you are back at the bbq with friends talking about how fast you can’t believe the year went again and how goals weren’t hit this year BUT 2016 will DEFINITELY be different.

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But what if you can get to December 2015 and it WAS in fact your year. You looked and felt your best all year around. You took the holiday. You found a new passion and purpose. You showed up bigger. You ticked some big goals off your bucket list.

20 months ago I said yes to something a little different. I said yes to a nutritional cleansing system Isagenix that changed mine and my husbands lives. Completely.

Yes, it can be scary trying something new. And yes, it can be scary stepping out of a comfort zone and in to something that you’re not quite sure of.

But here is what I know.

If you aren’t exactly where you want to be in life right now, with your health or financially – then what are you doing to change that? We all know that life is a series of choices. Choices that lead us to results. When I started Isagenix I made a choice to do it for me and my health and that 1 choice changed both my health dramatically and my financial situation dramatically.

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{ My own health journey with Isagenix that has kept me healthy, lean and feeling WELL all of 2014 – 18 months, travel all year & still feeling great }

You see, Isagenix is network marketing. If you don’t know what that is, quite simply it is referral based marketing – the thing you do every.single.day. If you try a new restaurant, see a new movie, love a cut or colour at the hairdressers, you talk about it, you refer people there, you might even tag yourself on facebook. Thing is, in every day life, you’re not paid for referring new clients or customers to that restaurant/hairdressers etc. With Network Marketing – you are. That is the simplist way to describe it. It was something I was already naturally doing being active on social media – bloggers in fact do it all the time with ‘sponsored’ posts. And I truly believe it is the most phenomenal most life changing profession of all times.

But what does all of that have to do with you making 2015 YOUR year – your best year YET.

Well. Everything.

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Morgan & I are looking to help more people achieve what we have – freedom with our health (feeling the best we ever have – fact – like being able to travel all year long and still feel and look great) and freedom financially. That might just mean a few extra hundred in your household a month. That mean a few extra hundred in your household a week. Or that might mean a few extra thousand a week. That choice is up to you we are just here to then help you work hard to achieve that.

All you have to do is say yes. To try a month on the cleansing system we have used for 20 months now and be open to be coached by us.

2015 is going to come whether you’re ready for it or not and the next 12 months are going to pass by no matter what. My wish for you is that you not just say 2015 will be your best year yet health and goals wise, but you actually DO something to achieve that, you stop saying it, and start LIVING IT which is what we are here to help you with.

If you really truly want 2015 to be different, if you really truly want better health, if you really truly want a lifestyle where you can say yes to more things, then we would love to hear from you and help you get started with just that.

2015 IS your year and we want to help you achieve that properly.

Let us know if you’re interested in learning more about cleansing or simply how to make 2015 YOUR best year yet at ….

info@annaandmorgan.com

We can’t wait to help you create your biggest, most boldest, most extraordinary year yet.

XO

Making every day count


You know sometimes, there are those moments of chance that you act upon and the simple act alone can change your life dramatically? Those moments that you’re not expecting, and the lesson doesn’t come immediately, but from the act alone. Thosemoments. 

It happened to me a mere 2 days ago as I was rushing to catch my plane to Bali. I normally always come prepared with soul defyingly good books tucked neatly away in my carry on luggage, but for some reason, this trip I had forgotten. So as I rushed past the newsagent steps from my gate, I took a risk and dived in to the aisles to make a hasty choice on a book I could devour by the pools. 

Best decision ever. 

I picked up a book by a favourite inspiration of mine – Robin Sharma titled “Life Lessons from the monk who sold his Ferrari” thinking it might hopefully be as good as the first book I had read from that series ‘the monk who sold his ferrari’. Not only was it ‘as good’, it exceeded every expectation. 

I am an inspiration junkie. I am attracted to any words, pictures, movies, or seminars where I think I could burn my passion a little brighter or become more connected to something far greater. And this book delivered that. 
There was 101 life lessons – all of which I resonated with deeply. But there was one particular lesson though; lesson 72 – ‘See your day as your life’ that particularly resonated a little harder than others and made my heart beat a little faster than normal. 
It read; 

“The days come and go like muffled and veiled figures sent from a distant, friendly party, but they say nothing, and if we do not use the gifts they bring, they carry them as silently away’, observed Emerson. As you live your days, so you will live your life. It is easy to get caught up in the trap of thinking that this day does not matter much given all the days that lie ahead of you. But a great life is nothing more than a series of great, well lived days strung together like a beautiful necklace of pearls. Every day counts and contributes to the quality of the end result. The past is gone, the future is but a figment, so this day is really all you can own. Invest it wisely. 

It continued to make my heart beat a little faster again with this; 

“Your life is not a dress rehearsal. Lost opportunities rarely come again. Today, vow to increase your passion for living and multiply the commitment you will bring to each of the days that will follow this one. Many people think that it takes months and years to change your life. respectfully, I disagree, You change your life the second you make a decision from the depths of your heart to be a better, more dedicated human being.

Expansive. Soul Swelling. Screaming to the sun ‘hells yes’.  Heart beating kind of goodness. It was going in to my concisous somewhere a lot deeper than other words do. It’s because the message amongst his words spoke such truth. 
Life is just a series of days. Lived, one after the other after the other, after the other. Neither is any more special than the last, each one containing a sunrise and a sunset, and another 24 hours. And yet there are some days I think – it’s ok, I don’t have to do better today, or it can’t wait for tomorrow, as it’s “just another day”. But it’s so not. 

Every single 24 hours we have the chance to live again. Our hours turn in to days, that turn in to weeks, that turn in to months that turn in to years. But ALL our time passes day by DAY. So that is the trick to this living thing – living each DAY like it is your most special one. Here’s the thing as well, you don’t know when your time is up so imagine living each day as if it was your last. 
Would you hit snooze 4 or 5 times? No you would be up with ease at sunrise in awe that it might be your last. Would you get agitated in traffic? Nope, you might turn up your favourite tunes a little louder or take the time to call a friend or family member you haven’t spoken to in awhile (on blue tooth of course). Would you let self hate or loathing stop you throughout your day – buying that yummy lunch, saying hello to strangers because you want to, writing a big love post on your social media platforms? Nope – because all judgement would go out the window – as that day would be it to do it. 

Every single day you have a new 24 hours laid out in front of you like a gift from the universe/mother nature/God/Science – whoever or whatever you believe in. It’s yours to do whatever you like with – so don’t waste it. Just remember that life isn’t big bold grand gestures and singular days you remember, it’s living consciously, day by day making the moments count. It’s realising that you have every day to write a new story, to be grateful, to be happy and to make a different in your life and others.

So how can you make your days count or be just as special as those days you feel alive on holiday, at Christmas or on a really good day you have just had on your weekend? Here are just some of my gentle nudges with love…

+ Wake up earlier. 
+ Make sure you are happy with where you’ve chosen to be at this stage in life, and if you’re not, change it. Without delay. 
+ Spend 5 minutes each morning writing what you’re grateful for. 
+ Watch the sunrise or the sunset, at least every day.
+ Practice the art of presence in all that you say and do. 
+ Stop rushing. Stop it. 
+ Be a better listener – remember we have two ears and one mouth, you might be surprised at how much better you connect and how much a deeper connection you have. 
+ Create a beautiful home. I think a home is a reflection of the life you THINK you deserve or what’s going on inside your mind. Keep your house spacious, clean, tidy and have things you love in it. 
+ On that note; don’t wait to use the good glasses, dinner set, champagne glasses – EVERY day should be celebrated. 
+ Toast more things – I don’t have one glass of champagne without toasting to something – good health, good friends, sunsets … whatever is currently filling me up. 
+ Eat good, healthy food – your body is a temple and one that must be respected daily.
+ Move your body – whether it’s a 10 minute walking around the block or an hour in the gym…just move your body. 
+ Don’t touch your phone in the morning until you have at least done your gratitudes, kissed and said hello to your loved ones and eaten breakfast. Facebook. Instagram. Emails can wait.
+ Meditate. Daily. Without Fail. 

And lastly;

+ Be more, do less. 

If this was your last 24 hours here on earth how would you be spending it? Wildly in love with your family. Forgiving. Thoughtful. In love. Hungry for fun. Present. Are just some of my guesses – but the beautiful thing is you can have that kind of day everyday, and THAT is what creates a magnificent life. 
So what are YOU going to do today that will create a more magnificent life for yourself? I’d love to hear it even if it’s one word in the comments below. 

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Your choice to live a happier life


It’s 5am. The alarm starts to ring with whatever favourite tune I have picked to awake me that week, and I slowly blink my eyes open from a deep, amazing sleep … I get out of bed, with a smile on my face, already grateful I am awake and realise I have been gifted another day. Some days are easier than others to get out of my huge warm bed, but no matter what I know this…

I am truly, deeply, wildy convinced that an early start sets you up for a successful day. 

So it doesn’t matter that I am tired some days. It doesn’t matter that I have had a late night. It doesn’t matter that I could think of 1,000 other things I could/would like to be doing rather than getting out of my that warm bed at 5am what does matter is I know regret of not setting my day up for success with a work out and early start far outweighs tired feelings – every time. 

It was because of this mindset I was gifted a big uh huh moment the other day that came from listening to my mentor and friend David Wood from ‘The Kick Ass Life’ on the treadmill the other day at said 5am gym work out. 

My uh huh moment was along the lines of a positive vs negative mindsets and why some people can have abundant and successful lives whilst others don’t. 

& I realised this … 

It’s a choice. It’s ALL a choice. Success is a choice. Happiness is a choice. Love is a choice. Being positive a choice. Seeing the good in people and things is a choice. Laughter is a choice. Living a beautiful life is a choice. But on the other side, so is the bad shit. Failing and not getting back up is a choice. Negativity is a choice. Bitchiness is a choice. Playing the victim is a choice. Deciding to play small and not live up to the hero inside of you is a choice. 


I have come to learn again, and again and again and again, that ALL the greatness, power, love and happiness lies within each and every person. I am going to repeat that again.  ALL the greatness, power, love and happiness lies within each and every person. There is only one person with the power and ability to bring that out and that person is….You. 

Picture it’s like you having a master key, and you are the one solely responsible for unlocking it. Until you do, its inside, burning brightly just smothered in doubt and fear. And doubt and fear don’t serve anybody, especially you. 


Trust me when I say this too. Do I personally still hear my inner critic? For sure gorgeous, I really do. I still have bad moments too (moments, not hours or days – critical point of difference). I still see that not everything is perfect in this world nor will it ever be. I just manage my thoughts. I make managing my thoughts a daily practice. EVERYONE has the ability & power to do that. EVERYONE. There is of course negative, bad, devastating shit in the world. Everyday. I don’t ignore that I just make a choice to every single day, in every single hour to focus on the positive. 


To choose better, to choose happiness and love and positive thoughts over negative ones means you will forge a strong and happy life for yourself and all of those around me. By focusing on light, and love and positive things in your life, you WILL attract more of the exact same in your world. You can then contribute to the world more positively. Fact. When you focus on darkness & negativity in your life however, you create more of THAT. Fact.


I’m asking you a serious, serious question. Of the above – what would you prefer? To go out in the world, everyday, contributing with love & light and being part of the solution … or going out negative, bitchy, miserable and a victim “that will never happen to me, Its not possible” … and be part of the Problem.

Again…its just a CHOICE. A really, really, easy choice. That you can make in an instant. Constantly.

Just choose better. If you can’t understand why things aren’t going your way, why you always get stuck in crappy situations, why love never works out for you…look inside first. To what you think, believe and are actively doing in your life…then choose better. Better thoughts. Which lead to better feelings. Which leads to better actions…which leads to a better LIFE.

It’s just a thought. But remember, it’s small thoughts collectively that can change the world.  
p.s see why 5am starts are so great? You get to have moments to yourself like this. HA xx

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Finding your purpose in life



Oh. Why hey there you. I am so glad you’re with me in this exact moment as it’s right where you need to be. How are you feeling? Breathe. Sit with me for a moment and just be aware of the space you’re in. Is it calm? Relaxed? Or are you a little stressed and overwhelmed. Whatever space it is, I need you with me, all of you with all of me so clear it all out – and be open for what Im about to say – and hey, I need you to listen, really listen.
Are you ready?
You are actually a miracle. Fact. You, sitting here in front of this screen, reading these words. With your beating heart and incredible mind. With your breathe and your nuances.
A remarkable miracle, here on earth, born for a reason. You’re not here by chance or luck, you are here because you have purpose. A big one. You were born for a reason, and let me assure you, that your life’s mission was never, and will never be to just get by, it’s not justto exist. No freaking way.
Your lifes mission is to LIVE.  Live with gusto. Awe. Wonder. To play. Laugh. Get excited. Feel aligned. Be connected. To serve. Give. To wake with a fire in your belly so great you can’t help but to leap out of bed. To receive all of lifes gifts. It’s to know true happiness.
Heavy stuff? Not a chance. It’s pure FACT. Divine truth. Your birth right is to live a life of love and abundance and if you’re accepting anything less, then gorgeous, it’s time we got you back on the path you were born to be on.
At the moment I am truly blessed. I get to work for myself doing work that fills my whole heart and soul. I get to visit the beach on sunny days. I get to chose where I travel to in the world and when. I get to chose an income and earn it. I get to live my life of ideal days and genuinely help others do the same. There really was a journey to this life I now get to live though and my own life’s mission now is just to wake others up to their own greatness and potential and lead them to their own version of freedom, abundance and love.
So, with your permission, I’d love to share some little things you can start doing today, right now, to start heading back to a life of living, not just existing. That’s ok? Wonderful, I knew you’d be up for it…let’s begin then shall we?
Always want more

This could be the same as ‘never settle. Always wanting more means never accepting status quo. It means seeing barriers and breaking through them. It means setting goals that scare you because you ALWAYS want more. More from life, more from friends, more from love, but even most importantly more from yourself. Being the miracle that you are you have enormous capabilities to love and to serve and to give and to laugh and to have fun and to set huge goals and achieve them. Sometimes though, or even more sadly, regularly, we don’t want to deal with fear or rejection and so, we settle for less – we live a life that’s comfortable. I assure you though, you don’t want comfortable. You want more. You’ve got a goal to start your own business by 30? Why 30? Why not see if you can’t start putting things in to play now? That’s wanting more. You have achieved great success in a big project you’ve been working on that lit you up? Do something even grander and of more service next time. That too is wanting more.
Someone that wants more is the one you see dancing completely to the beat of their own drum living an extraordinary life – be that person.
Be grateful

An attitude of gratitude attracts abundance. Fact. The more you are grateful the more wildly phenomenal your life will get. It’s science I swear. I can single handedly point to massive growth and happiness in my life when my gratitude grew and grew.  Every time you are actively being grateful, genuinelygrateful, and expressing that gratitude in all areas of your life – more magic will occur (miracles, if you are open to that word). If you look at all the successful people in the world, and I don’t mean just riches, and tried to find a commonality amongst them all, it would be – gratitude.
If you struggle with daily acts of gratitude, just start small. When you awake, say thank you for the simple reason you are in fact awake. Being alive is in itself a big enough reason to be deeply grateful. If your favourite song comes on the radio, smile and express gratitude. If you love coffee and can sit and your work desk with a hot cup of Joe’ – smile and express gratitude. Even simply if you have two working legs, arms, eyes and ears – smile and express deep, deep gratitude – because what a gift of health that is.
Something magical happens when you start to express more gratitude too – and not just miracles – MORE of the good stuff gets attracted in to your life and you will start to find more and more things to be grateful for. By focusing on what you do have you attract an energy of abundance – so start to flex this muscle more and more and more until gratitude is a natural daily practice all day everyday.
Be open

To be open is to live.  Being open can be so beautifully and simply put as not judging. So you disagree with someone because they don’t look or sound similar to you. That’s totally ok, accept them anyway. Or maybe you have worked yourself up because someone had a different opinion to you that you got quite angry over. Breathe. Look at different opinions as gifts and that you got to hear a different version of events that you had not looked at in that light previously. I sometimes just sit in gratitude I in fact live in a country of democracy where people are allowed to have their own opinions. To be open is to live a life with open ears, open eyes but most importantly an open heart.
Gorgeous, guess what. Shit happens.
People will have different opinions. Things will not always, in fact sometimes rarely go to plan. Life will have ups and downs. You will have bad days. There will be dreams and goals you have to let go off.  Those you love you may lose.
Be open anyway.
Life is meant to be lived with open ears, open eyes and an open heart. The disappointment, prolonged hurt, anger and hate comes from closed ears, closed eyes and a closed heart.
Be open to new ideas. New adventures. New ways of thinking. New food. New people. New travel suggestions, new opportunities – but mainly, just be open to what life has to offer you as it all is a gift with the lessons we are gifted to learn. 
Live everyday with awe and wonder – everyday 

It’s the small things in life. Happiness doesn’t have to be elusive because nothing major has happened or is happening in your life. That barista that put a love heart or leaf in your coffee? That should make your day. Because frankly, whether they’re paid to kick ass at their job or not, they really didn’t need to go that extra mile – but guess what? They did. Your favourite song that comes on the radio? Your mind should be blown. It sounds silly (maybe) but to me, this is a love of fulfillment.
We were born with a natural awe and wonder. When our parents used to blow bubbles and play peek a boo – we thought it was the most magical thing in the WORLD – and yet somehow, somewhere along the way, we completely lost our way. Everything became normal. Boring. You’ve got to get BACK to that awe & wonder. It’s time to shake of the shackles of normal and wake back up.  You have sunsets, and laughter and love hearts in your coffee and divine choice for things like cooking your favourite food for goodness sake. Pretty wonderful
So here we are. If you’re still here, reading these words, I honour you. My only wish in this life is to live a life I am proud of with joy and love and service and help anyone willing to do the same to do so. The above words are soaked in honestly, truth and love, and if you can even start small, and adopt one – your life will have radical change.

It just starts with the openness to want it bad enough – and I hope you do.

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