It’s 7:30am here in beautiful Bali and I am currently sitting over looking the infinity pool that looks out over the ocean here at our divine hotel. There are no other souls in sight, and why would there be, I think I’m the only weirdo who still loves waking up really early on ‘holidays’.
It’s just me, my book, my gratitude journal, my conscious creating journal, my laptop and the energy of total and utter fulfillment.
I came to Bali to work by the infinity pool – Morgan and I have created a life for ourselves where we are location independent so can just pack up and go work from a pool instead of our home office whenever we feel like it and we did just that the last week – but I also had a deep desire to find a better groove and rhythm with my schedule. And I knew it would take a trip to Bali to ground and centre in to it.
Back on May 23rd 2011 I pressed publish on my very first post on my very first blog I created; lifesshinyprettythings. Back then no one really knew what a blog was, in fact most people absolutely didn’t know what they were and even more people didn’t do it. Blogs were big in the U.S but very few Aussie girls were creating spaces to share their daily musings online.
I loved the idea of it though, I was a young girl of 23 trying to find her mark in the world and was going through such massive transformation I wanted a space to share all of that – who I was, where I was headed, and the journey along the way. I also loved to write, ever since I was little I have loved to write, so it was like combining a sincere passion of mine with an awesome idea – and lifesshinyprettythings was born.
Every single day forever more, I came home from my full time corporate career, and spent every night in my zen den, writing for my online space.
It literally became the thing that kept me up late and got me up early and my love of writing only deepened. I was even viewing the world through new lenses as being an almost daily poster (aka, sharing one post a day) meant I needed to go through new experiences or emotions to share congruently and authentically.
Over time and love and sweat, I accrued a beautiful organic following of like minded women who too loved what I loved and resonated with what I shared.
It was thanks to that blog I knew that corporate REALLY wasn’t for me – I used to get so passionate about writing and wanting to grow that to videos, courses – whatever I could to empower women as I found empowerment through finding my own voice.
March 2013, so almost 2 years after starting the blog, I found network marketing through the worlds BEST company. I said a big excited yes to nutritional cleansing and everything that came with that and CANNON BALLED in to the business side of the company. Why? Because after years of blogging and knowing corporate wasn’t for me, I knew I had found the very vehicle that could allow more time AND financial freedom in my life.
Cannon balling in to something and giving it your absolute all – all of my spare time, waking moments, love and attention… other things in my life had to be put aside; and writing daily for the blog was one of them. And you know what, it had to happen. I had finally found the exact thing that was actually going to give me the time and financial freedom Morgan and I were so desperately looking for in our life, and with all great success stories, it had to take, and did take sacrifice.
I didn’t neglect it entirely of course, you can’t ignore your passion entirely after all, I even did the huge job of re branding my little ole space of lifesshinyprettythings to the new annaandmorgan dot com site that I pour my time and attention in to today.
Here is the thing though, for the last 3 years, I have built my business, and for at the very least 1 of those years, I have had the eternal tug of wanting to go back to writing and posting much more frequently, but I always had an excuse.
That I should be doing a call instead.
That I shouldn’t start my day with writing (when I’m most in my creative energy) because that is when I should be doing biz emails or biz ‘things’.
That I shouldn’t do something that makes me feel so GOOD when I am not where I want to be with our business goals yet.
That I don’t have the time.
These are just some – I could probably actually write a book on excuses as to why I hadn’t gone back to my daily writing practice.
But there it was still. That eternal tug at my soul, write Anna, write.
I started to talk to Morgan about it. Like I was almost seeking approval.
I told him I wanted to go back to writing again, and he told me I should. I told him though that my writing would have to be in the morning, when I normally do a lot of my big impact biz stuff and that he would have to step up – and he said he would. He also reminded me that there was another 10 hours of my day (more even) that I could hit the biz stuff in after I had filled my cup first with writing.
I said ok.
So here I sit, at 7:30am in the morning, poolside in Bali, flexing my writing muscle again – declaring I’m back. That is the thing as well, if I am accountable to you again, whoever this is, taking the time out of your busy crazy day to read this little space of the internet – then I hold myself extremely accountable.
And guess what?
It feels so.fucking.good.
And that’s the thing about following the eternal tug on your soul – following what your soul is asking of you (for me, that was to write), feels GOOD, and good feelings put you in flow, and being in flow, leads to an incredibly beautiful and divinely inspired life.
This is just my story. I want to know yours though. The greatest story yet to be told is always your own but I hope if you learned anything for my own, its that you have to start listening to your soul again (it’s not woo woo, it’s the same as if I wrote trust your gut, or listen intuitively to what your body or mind is asking for).
What is it in your own life you have kept putting off because you’ve been too busy, or because it feels GOOD which makes you feel guilty?
Is it making sure you have a bath husband / kid and phone free every single night?
Is it privately journaling about a new journey you’re on?
Is it taking a candle making course?
Is it colouring in with really loud music when you get home from work?
I don’t know what your own soul / intuition / gut instinct is telling you to do, but I know you’re ignoring it, and I know listening to mine and getting back to the thing I love makes me incredibly happy, and it will for you too.
We have one go at this particular life darling heart – and if we don’t do the things we love on a daily basis then we just aren’t doing this life thing right.
So today, I dare you to follow your gut, listen to your intuition, tune in to your soul, and do the thing that its asking for most.
I promise you – you won’t regret it.
Anna
Tara Caetano
I love your writing babe, and I’m so looking forward to reading more of it! I think there are so many women out there who resist writing or even keeping a journal, in fear of what might arise or not knowing what to write about, but all it takes is carving out the space and showing up. Putting pen to paper and letting your soul be expressed. We all have a big, beautiful voice to be shared and expressed and writing has been the biggest saviour for me over the last 5 years, in really finding my own voice and learning just how valuable, powerful and necessary it is for me to share my heart out loud. Big love babe xx
Kim Curry
Thanks for sharing Anna. I too, have always felt the tug of writing so started a blog (and am also writing a book) but keep finding that others things butt in on my writing time. So it keeps getting put aside. Now, Ive decided that writing needs to be a PRIORITY for me. It’s what my soul is calling me to do. I need to listen more to my soul and less to the housework.